The Silence is Mine

Friday, November 10, 2006

it's jus 17 days to my 1st paper.

i really should start my revision. e heart is willin, e mind is not. i spend part of my time worryin about how little time i have, and not doin much about it.

since i hvnt been consistent w/ studyin some of my modules, extra work is foisted on me - a 7cm-thick set of readins to plough thru for one of my modules, some tutorials i hvnt been able to attempt, some concepts i'm stil in battle w/..all in all plenty of stuf to save in my brain, and i'm stil in e midst of procrastinatin..

a gd student flaunt wht they hv learned in e examinations hall.
well, i'm a step ahead.
i try my best to read my beloved profs' minds, so i can spot qns.
they shld b thkful i'm interested in them ok.
frankly some of them look like human antiques alr. hahaha.

my dream is ostensibly precarious nw, and i hate tt.

i want a wish. i want to go back into time..

..to change my past behaviour. i knw e past justifies e present but i dnt particularly like a past tt wil affect my present, and thrfore my future in a bad way.

*break in train of thots coz i jus read an sms*

fits into my story tho. i loathe e exact dreaded feelin of wantin to change e way of life of others, shapin it e way i desire. i jus dnt like e way ths r now, but i cnt do anyth abt it. i'm powerless to change facts, esply so w/ historic ones. mayb i realy should exert greater effort to compromise. mayb not.

i dnt need encouragement. i need myself. i want her back. at some pt in life, u realy ought to let yourself knw e importance of your own existence. i knw i am impt to me, and tt's wht matters.

i'm livin on a mere belief nw. i realy hope it can materialise.

Sharon | 7:58 PM
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