The Silence is Mine

Monday, November 20, 2006

i was studyin, and sarah said i looked like i enjoyed wht i was doin. i flashed her my insincere smile, hopin she wld get e hint tt wht i was studyin was sth borin.

ytd aftnn, i finaly thot to myself, enough is enough.

i decided to outsource "studyin". how? hmm..of course i hv my way..

:D smart huh?

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see? i didnt lie..told u it was borin alr..

i hear e stuf on my table callin me nw..

they r so attn-seekin..我受不了了！

:(

Sharon | 9:43 PM
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Saturday, November 18, 2006

double digit slp hrs are few and far b/w in recent days. it is agonizin to think tt sth as essential as slp has been rendered a luxury, well..at least to me:(

besides e fact tt i stil want to stand by my exercise regime durin this period, i hv absolutely no wish to leave my current comfort zone at home. it's hell, for it's not realy wht i want.

it mus b e stress, my complexion is realy bad nw, it's virtually devoid of e little radiance i used to hv.

as time trickle pass tho, i am approachin tt end i hanker after, and which has long been engendered in my mind.

oh yes..tt end.

Sharon | 5:01 PM
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Thursday, November 16, 2006

i miss wrk, and my colleagues.

i like to talk to yx. she dnt display moodswings, and she's v talkable tho we hvnt realy been talkin much this sem. i dnt feel like i hv to mk any extra effort to engage in a conversation w/ her.

i shldnt study hy2229 nation-buildin in sg when it's late in e night. i shld only study tt when i am facin insomnia, of which e chances are almost zero.

my mktg module grade was sort of revealed in e last cls ytd. i regretted not studyin smarter/harder in my jc days and securin myself a plc in bizad.

i feel like a pc of cloth, yearnin to b tailored into a beautiful dress to b sashayed in, only to realise i'm act an ugly skirt.

it's 10 pathetic days to my 1st paper alr..and sigh..i jus feel like killin myself.

evyth feels, not right.

Sharon | 9:07 AM
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Friday, November 10, 2006

it's jus 17 days to my 1st paper.

i really should start my revision. e heart is willin, e mind is not. i spend part of my time worryin about how little time i have, and not doin much about it.

since i hvnt been consistent w/ studyin some of my modules, extra work is foisted on me - a 7cm-thick set of readins to plough thru for one of my modules, some tutorials i hvnt been able to attempt, some concepts i'm stil in battle w/..all in all plenty of stuf to save in my brain, and i'm stil in e midst of procrastinatin..

a gd student flaunt wht they hv learned in e examinations hall.
well, i'm a step ahead.
i try my best to read my beloved profs' minds, so i can spot qns.
they shld b thkful i'm interested in them ok.
frankly some of them look like human antiques alr. hahaha.

my dream is ostensibly precarious nw, and i hate tt.

i want a wish. i want to go back into time..

..to change my past behaviour. i knw e past justifies e present but i dnt particularly like a past tt wil affect my present, and thrfore my future in a bad way.

*break in train of thots coz i jus read an sms*

fits into my story tho. i loathe e exact dreaded feelin of wantin to change e way of life of others, shapin it e way i desire. i jus dnt like e way ths r now, but i cnt do anyth abt it. i'm powerless to change facts, esply so w/ historic ones. mayb i realy should exert greater effort to compromise. mayb not.

i dnt need encouragement. i need myself. i want her back. at some pt in life, u realy ought to let yourself knw e importance of your own existence. i knw i am impt to me, and tt's wht matters.

i'm livin on a mere belief nw. i realy hope it can materialise.

Sharon | 7:58 PM
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Friday, November 03, 2006

i had to go to econ to get batt for my mp3 player on my way home frm work today.
as usual, i had a transparent box file w/ me, tt actualy became my prop today leh.
lemme explain myself.

me: uncle, i want this batt.

him: (lookin at my file) oh u preparin for Os ah?

me: hmm..er..no lah.

him: teach tuition?

me: *shakes head*

him: prelim?

me: act i'm in uni alr..

him: yr1?

me: nope. 3.

i didnt knw i act looked so young. either tt or i mus hv a stupid face and gotten myself retained for 5yrs. i chose to believe in e former and i think i'll go econ pretty often aft today=)

i bet nobody wld agree w/ me on this, but kingkoil and dunlopillo mattresses cnt fight SBS bus seats. at least to me lah. i spend my commutin journeys loungin on e bus. i hate travellin coz i think tt's a waste of time, and thrfore my inertia twds gg to sch. e remedy was obviously to do some stuf in e midst, but i cnt read for i'll get nauseous, so slp is e nx best alternative.

i'm jus worried one day my head wil land on someone's shoulder, mistakin it for mrleong's. or some pickpocket wil strike. tt wil b q a sight lah. but other than tt, i kinda enjoy slpin on my way to and fro destinations.

havin many late nights in a row in recent days has certainly caught on to me, so much so tt when i slept for 8hrs last night, i actualy feel more tired than usual. i jus hope e lethargy driven frm lack of slp doesnt translate into premature agein.

but at least after today, i hv came to e realisation tt i hv a leeway of 5yrs frm my peers..hmm so premature agein or not,stil not too bad lah! :D

Sharon | 6:22 PM
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Thursday, November 02, 2006

the proj presentation finaly took plc ytd.

to kinda celebrate, i coerced mrleong for mac brkfast..my treat lah=) hmm to thk him for listenin to my const ramblins abt tt damn grp! hahaha. hmm..*lovelove*

e cls examined 6 consumption tribes in all.
1. cosplay
2. breakdancing
3. muay thai
4. mambo jambo
5. gymnastics
6. korean dramas

some visual stimulation (of 3 grps i think):

i kinda feel my grp's presentation didnt fare as well as i expected it to.

it was soso loh. u knw, e usual storyline, no brkthrus, no excitment, jus avg. i cld hv made a diff, but i didnt. i voted myself out for presentation to spite them. my logic was, if they think they r so gd, then i shall let them see how gd they r. they failed miserably in my opinion. but i cleanly forgotten tt i'll b sharin their grade, and e presentation was worth 30% ah. -_- this is so dumbo.

triple bliss ytd anyway. i dnt hv to see them for any proj mtg ever agn, ytd's presentation concluded e examinable part of e module, so i'm basically 1 module down, and i got full marks on my quiz, which i didnt expect to. i bot myself a forever21 spag, kinda like a pacifier to myself ya?

e bliss was shortlived by e ltr part of e night. damn. isnt it always like tt?

i'm leavin for sch sn.

hello, my 1.5hrs commutin time:(

Sharon | 7:41 AM
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